Thursday, September 18, 2008


I once heard a song that had the words, "He rocks me to sleep"...I thought that was so much how I feel when I go to sleep at night. I do think of God as a Father and me as his child. I don't feel like I am a grown up yet. I am trying to grow more mature but I know I still have a long way to go. I think I am no longer on milk but I don't think I have grown enough to say I am totally eating just the meat of the word. I am probably somewhere in between.

I do not study my Bible enough and I do not stay in constant prayer, a concept that I still have not wrapped my mind around yet. I do pray every night before I go to sleep and special prayers for those I know need the extra attention in my life. I know I could do so much better but I think I am weak. Not in faith, I believe with all my heart, but in being able to discipline myself. To really buckle down and study is one of my main goals. I love the word but I seem to always be doing other things when I should be reading my Bible.

I think I am going to pick out a particular subject for next week and just study all the scriptures on that. I have joined bible studies but can't seem to stay focused. It is a failing and I ask for prayer in this area of my life. Lord help me to study to show myself approved.


2nd Cup of Coffee said...

Well, Eve, I'm so touched by your comment on my blog today that I don't know what to say. Your posts here are so touching and heartfelt. I know that God is so pleased with the earnestness of your desire to draw close to Him. And if you're not perfect about your approach or discipline in your own eyes, just remember it's your heart sacrifice he desires most of all. All the other disciplines and obedience are important, but you can't gin up love and desire for him, and you have that. Blessings on you!

Me said...

Bible study is a weak area for me too.

Nicole said...

I agree, this if very important and I believe God is tugging at your heart to do this. He will give you strength to carry it through.

I am getting better at this but it has not been easy. I needed a plan and so in the back of my Bible there is a yearly plan I go by. If I skip a day or two I just skip those days and keep going.

I will be praying for you my friend!!! Keep me posted on your progress.


Alex said...

Eve, you're not alone. I struggle with the same exact thing.

Ronda said...

Hi Eve,
Well this makes me feel much better. I am going through the same type of thing. I know that I do not study or pray enough, and I have been asking for my sweet Lords help with this. I'll be praying for you. Thanks for sharing so much of your self with others, it is more of a help than you will ever know.
Love & Prayers,

vikki said...

with all the busy-ness of the world & our lives, & even with all the modern conveniences it is hard to find time. my time with God is at nite. for the past two years i read the book proverbs. 31 of them, one for each day. i have tried bible studies & so far have not really clicked with them. i, also need to seek Him more & ask for His guidance. i believe that even if we take a small bit of His teachings & apply it to our heart to give to others that is what He would want ~ & i see that in you & your blog. hugs & blessings, vikki ♥

Debra said...

I agree with all of your commentors here-But I have to say I feel an urgency to spend time with the Lord, and even if it's one chapter a day, I read His word. Sometimes a topic will hit me, or a verse, and I dive into it deeper. I can't explain it, but I just can't go a day without being in His presence and maybe not hearing Him, but knowing we connected. My time is morning.
Your heart is right, maybe if you simply pray for Him to draw you, then you will have that urgent desire. I don't think you should beat yourself up-it's really obvious you have a minsitry here. Don't let the enemy divert you by guilt that isn't necessary.
Love, Debra

Alex said...

Hi Eve...I hope you're having a nice weekend.

Joe said...

If were honest, we all fall short. But being truthfull with ourselves that's how we are able to grow. Keep on keeping on great post.

Betty said...


You are not alone in this. I have been a Christian since I was 12 years old and still feel I am somewhere between a babe and a grown woman in the Lord.

I, too, do not study and prayer as often as I should. I pray more than I actually open up my Bible and read His Word. It seems I am always doing other things, so I can truly relate to what you have written about here.

I'm sending up a prayer right now that you will do better in the future than you have done in the past, and I would appreciate you praying the same prayer for me.

Truth4thejourney said...

He's waiting, Eve. He's patiently waiting for you to just pick up His word and commune with Him. He longs to spend time with you, his child whom He LOVES.